A poem by Me…for whomever…
A poem by Me…for whomever…
My weekend wasn’t filled with excitement or my usual spur of the moment traveling but I’m good with that! I arrived back in South Carolina feeling like I missed so much. And realistically, I had. I hadn’t seen my son in about a month. I hadn’t seen my second son (my dog, Tyler) in about a month. And of course, I had to let my Mom know that I wasn’t missing any body parts lol.
My journey had taken me to Atlanta, Georgia; Dallas, Texas and Davenport, Iowa….then back to Texas. All in a month! But it was fun and I love traveling. For a short while, I wanted to start life over in Texas but that turned out to be not a good decision. I felt like being that far from home, I needed some type of support system and I didn’t see that as being possible. But I learned a lot and i feel like that trumps all of the BS involved.
Tonight has not been one of the best nights. I feel like I have so many decisions to make and no direction but that’s for another post at another time. Right now, my body and my health is my concern.
In all honesty, I find it a struggle to get out of the bed every morning. I wake up and lay in bed hoping that I can fall back to sleep but rarely does it happen. My body aches and it feels like every muscle in my body is moving or cramping. My mind is racing…thinking about all of the things that need to be done. My body has other plans. I lay there for an hour….drifting in and out. By the time I get up, I have forgotten about all the things that need to be done. Brain fog. I wonder around the house for 30 mins and then I start trying to get my mind right.
What needs to be done? Is my son okay? Did I feed Tyler? Sheba? What medicine do I need to take? Did I take my meds yesterday? Where is my pain medicine? Why am I hurting right there? Where did that bruise come from? Why can’t I remember?
I suffer from an ailment named Systemic Lupus Erythematosus. People who don’t know or don’t understand have a hard time believing but this thing is a life-changer! At age 15, finding out that this was my fate was an eye opener. Growing up I always looked different because of my eyes, hair texture and overall look. Lupus was one more way for me to different from everyone but I just wanted to fit in….be normal. But that wasn’t in the cards for me. My ninth grade year in high school was a disaster. I was sick just about all year but once I made it out….I learned how to control my stress.
Through the years, God has blessed me with my son-what a blessing! He has blessed me with life, breath and my health. Until a couple of years ago, I virtually had no health problems except for the occasional flare from stress but I conquered even that! Mastered my stress levels and lived life!
I have come to the conclusion that I want to share my story. I want to share my neighbors story who suffer from this ailment as well. I want to be a part of gaining awareness for this ailment that affects so many but understood by very few. I believe that this is a part of my purpose. I believe that by sharing my story, I will save someone’s life. Maybe even make people pay attention! We need a cure!
I would like to aid in gaining more awareness, maybe assist in adding a South Carolina chapter of the Lupus Foundation of America, write a book and just do whatever I can to further my cause. I can always use help, guidance and mentorship because I am always striving for growth. If you would like to help in any way, please leave a comment or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
My quote for the morning comes from the author of one of my favorite books to read. It’s inspirational and gives you things to think about.
I know that it has some length to it but to truly appreciate what this quote has to offer, please read it in its entirety.
“Resolve to throw off the influences of any unfortunate environment, and to build your own life to order. Taking inventory of mental assets and liabilities, you may discover that your greatest weakness is lack of self-confidence.
Self-Confidence Formula (abridged)
“I fully realize that no wealth of position can long endure, unless built upon truth and justice; therefore, I will engage in no transaction which does not benefit all whom it affects. I will succeed by attracting to myself the forces I wish to use, and the cooperation of other people. I will induce others to serve me, because of my willingness to serve others. I will eliminate hatred, envy, jealously, selfishness, and cynicism, by developing love for all humanity, because I know that a negative attitude towards others can never bring me success. I will cause others to believe in me, because I will believe in them, and in myself. I will sign my name to this formula, commit it to memory, and repeat it aloud once a day, with full faith that it will gradually influence my thoughts and actions so that I will become a self-reliant and successful person.”
– Napoleon Hill, from his best-selling and groundbreaking book “Think and Grow Rich“.
Good afternoon everyone!!
It has been a few days since I last posted and hopefully you have gotten through any type of “block” that was preventing you from thinking and/or writing down your goals. It does take time sometimes to get your thoughts together and focus. Having focus is very important in this process because it makes it easier for you to think freely. When you know what you want, it makes it easier for you to “focus on your focus”. When you are “focused on your focus”, you have made up your mind about what you need and you are determined to bring your dreams into fruition.
Is it hard to “focus on your focus”? YES! If everyone was focused on their focus, everyone would be successful! There would be no middle or lower class, everyone would be apart of the Billionaires or Millionaires club! Bring focus to your life shows that you have what it takes and you won’t let anyone steer you in the wrong way.
If it helps, keep a journal or notepad just to write down your miscellaneous thoughts. Still keep gathering newspaper and magazine clippings for your vision board. On Monday we will start working on it so write that down in your journal or calendar.
Remember, if you have any questions or concerns, please do not hesitate to contact me.
“If I had to select one quality, one personal characteristic that I regard as being most highly correlated with success, whatever the field, I would pick the trait of persistence. Determination. The will to endure to the end, to get knocked down seventy times and get up off the floor saying, ”Here comes number seventy-one!”
– Richard M. DeVos, is the billionaire owner of the Orlando Magic
Day 3 of the Fresh Start Challenge
Hopefully, you have started writing down your goals and seriously thinking about them. I have decided what I would like to work towards and i want to share them so that you can visualize what I’m talking about. Your goals do not have to be written down this way but it’s a good way to organize your thoughts.
I have decided that I want to work on my attitude, family, finances, and my physical appearance, just to name a few. My list doesn’t include a detailed description, but that will be changing soon. I like to know exactly what direction I’m going in and what I’m working towards specifically. For example, I know that I want to work on having a monthly budget. My finances aren’t horrible but having a budget would make it so much easier to plan for my bills, savings and money for my household, personal things and things that I need to take care of.
The Fresh Start pyramid will give you an idea of a baseline. It gives you the different areas and they are very broad. Take a look:
Attitude, trust and temperance being the most important because of the world we live in today. Use this pyramid to give you some ideas.
If you ever have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask. Send me an email at email@example.com. I will post your question (minus your information) on my blog with an answer.
“The secret of getting ahead is getting started.
The secret of getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks
into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one.”
– Mark Twain